In trying to explain what happened to me in Uganda to someone that didn't go, I put into words what I had been struggling to wrap my mind around all along. How was it that we felt so much more set free in Uganda than we did in America. Every one of us felt such a strong sense of being set free, that we didn't really want to come back. I write those words and can hardly believe them myself. I missed my children and family as we were away 2 weeks at that point. What was it that was drawing us back like a bug to a light. I think it is this, we are set free in Christ Jesus our Lord from the prison of sin and self. But rather than live a life of faith and trust in Christ for our daily sustenance, we prefer control and comfort instead thinking these bars will keep us safe and secure. We prefer to go back into the prison that we have been set free from. We take out our paint brush and paint the bars until we can hardly tell they are there. The problem is we can't paint the outside of the bars. When you travel so far out of the jail cell and look back, you can see every black iron bar that held you back from truly resting in Christ for your everything and resting in intimacy with Him.
We call this cell our comfort zone, yet we are held in it by fear. By Fear we are kept in this zone we call comfort. There is a reason none who had been set free wanted to step back into the jail cell. We could finally see it for what it was, bars of fear and doubt that held us back from enjoying freedom in Christ.
Hebrews 4:1 Therefore, let us fear if, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you may seem to have come short of it.
